Thursday, March 10, 2011

Sometimes Life is Beautiful....

251. Community
252. Hot water
253. Trees starting to bud

254. Remembering how fun it is to swing high
255. Having a job where it is normal to be on a swing
256. The chaos of home
257. A spring that can be fixed instead of replacing the entire garage door
258. A sweaty boy
259. Ballerinas hugging their teacher before they leave

.....and sometimes it feels ugly. Who knows how the shift occurs? Circumstances are still the same, but something inside me doesn't feel the joy anymore. I feel overwhelmed and unable to live up to the expectations - my expectations. Life overwhelms me, my house overwhelms me, parenting overwhelms me, teaching kids who have problems I can't solve overwhelms me, even being married to the pastor overwhelms me.

260. Sophie's tears in the morning
261. Asking for forgiveness
262. Mommy guilt

Still I continue to count because I know sometimes thankfulness is just an act of obedience.

263. Breakfast burritos and Dr. Pepper

264. Blowing dandelions
265. Feeling overwhelmed
266. Taylor bringing me lunch

267. My girl - Sophie had her first school competition today. With her group she presented her Powerpoint to a panel of judges. I'm so proud of all the ways she has grown this year.

268. McDonald's playland

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!" Philippians 4:4

I count the things that I don't feel like counting because that seems to be what He wants me to do.

269. Feeling like you don't want to face the day

270. Leaves piled up on the front porch

271. Pajamas on the kitchen counter
272. Paint scratched off the doors

273. A dirty floor

"I know it well after a day smattered with rowdiness and worn a bit ragged with bickering that I may feel disappointment and the despair may flood high, but to give thanks is an action and rejoice is a verb and these are not mere pulsing emotions. While I may not always feel joy God asks me to give thanks in all things, because He know that the feeling of joy begins in the action of thanksgiving." Ann Voskamp

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